I was baptized by immersion in water by a Church of Christ preacher in the name of Jesus in 1983.
Since that time I have walked in sin.
Why do I care now at 46? Why do I share my story?
Around eleven years ago I actually started reading the Holy Bible. Once asked a few years later if I knew the Ten Commandments I could only name six or seven of them.
Since then I devoted them to memory. I consider that a step in the right direction. In fact actually reading the Bible on my own was a step in the right direction. I still struggle (not always devoting much effort on my part) with the Ten Commandments and the same two addictions I had when I started reading the Bible all those years ago.
The addictions I’ve struggled with are porn and smoking. I looked at porn on December 10th, 2017 and smoked around two packs of cigarettes daily till Dec 18th. Additionally, I smoked three cigarettes on Mar 2nd, 2018, several cigarillos through March 17th, and have not been keeping the Sabbath faithfully.
I would like to have my heart right with God. I’d like to make it to Heaven. I cling to 1 John 1:9 and James 5:16.
I want to keep his commandments and walk in the light, but feel like I’m stagnating in sin. For those of you that have read this before and it seems like the same old story, I feel your concern. Please persevere yourselves and remember me in your prayers.